Nobody dreams of becoming a stripper. Little girls aren’t sitting around playing with Barbies sharing visions of clear heels. They don’t swing on the monkey bars thinking about the pole, and there certainly aren’t any high school career aptitude tests that prepare you for table dancing.
I made my stage debut in 1987. At nineteen, wearing nothing but a g-string and a smile, I was a mere hopscotch and a skip from Easy Bake Ovens and Lee Press On nails.
Angela and I were in Waikiki cultivating our cocoa-buttered tans when we were approached.
“You ladies want to make an easy hundred?” Smelling of Neutrogena body oil, his mullet and Speedos were mocking him.
One hundred bones. That’s the amount one of us stood to win. And all we had to do was dance in a bikini and water soaked t-shirt. Where do we sign up?
The room was dark and smelled of stale beer. Traces of sand decorated the floor and Jon Bon Jovi’s You Give Love a Bad Name serenaded my entrance. Angela was already working the room for voters. As soon as the contestants learned the winner was chosen based on audience applause, the girls were all over it. I was too scared to hobnob with the young military boys so I ordered a Bud Light and found the dressing room. Fake I.D.s were made for these moments.
“You here for the contest?” A tall black woman with dreadlocks and stoned eyes greeted me.
“Well okay honey, put your name down. You got a shirt?” She handed me a clipboard. Her marathon-long pink nails mesmerized me.
Before I knew it my stage name was called.
“Ladies and Gentlemen, coming to the stage we have the sensational Stephanieeeeeee.” I chose my middle name because it was easy to remember.
Cloaked in a beer buzz and adrenaline, I worked my shit on stage. My Wife Beater tank was soaked and you could see straight through to my b-cups. No shame, just showmanship.
On stage I was flawless. I pretended I had perfect Tawny Kitaen hair, mannequin skin and a rockin’ bod. Worlds apart from how I felt off stage and a big Fuck You to the name callers in high school who titled me Freddy Kruger and Pizza Face. I found my new home on stage: a one-way ticket to Fabulous. The audience loved it too and, to my surprise, I won. I left the club with a crisp Benjamin and a new job.
Working at the club was a little different than shaking my moneymaker for a contest. Like all the girls, I had to double as a waitress. There was a small fry-cook stand next to the back stage where you could feast on greasy fries and chicken wings while you watched the girls strut their stuff.
Because food was involved, wearing pantyhose was required by law. It took a certain skill to master the assembly of wearing sheer hose underneath a g-string. I rolled each side down, belly to butt crack, then fastened the nylon to the tiny patches of Lycra/Spandex covering my business.
So there I was, on stage: Fabulous Stephanie. Perfect everything. Hip popping, Aqua-netted head rolling, kick ass money making Steph. I was having a blast. Bending over, taking a tip, head up, and moving on. The customers seemed like they were flocking to me, staring at my ass and smiling.
Cha ching baby, I’m a rock star.
After Mötley Crüe sang their last note I saw Angela upside down through my legs. She waved my attention and I walked off stage to meet her in the dressing room.
“Honey, come here.” She looked like she was hiding something.
“Take a look.” Angela placed my back to the floor length mirror and made me bend over, looking at my ass through my legs. Holy shit. Fuck. I was blown away with what I saw. I never shaved or groomed my pubic hair. Ever. Add to that fact, the visual of my pantyhose smashed up to my g-string. It was like a scene from Alien – only hairier. A bushel of pubic hair, flattened out like a dead spider under my pantyhose. It looked like my privates were robbing a bank.
“Oh my God.”
I couldn’t believe I was on stage bending over with my Bank Robber Business for the world to see. And I was smiling, asking for money! And I thought the customers were smiling because I was hot. I needed more than a razor. I needed a cocktail.
I took the rest of the night off – sneaking out the back exit so no one would see me.
After running home in shame, I turned on the TV and ran a hot bath. I grabbed a pair of scissors and a hand mirror and started lady-scaping immediately. In the background I heard Sigourney Weaver speaking. I stood up, scissors in hand and walked in to the bedroom. There she was. Ellen Ripley in all her bald glory.
I took it as a personal omen that Aliens was airing and decided to pay homage to my little freak show on stage by shaving myself completely.
If it was good enough for Sigourney, it was good enough for me.