On the heels of Saturday’s post, let’s talk.
Something made me hang on to that tattered cocktail napkin for 22 years. Something inside my spirit believed in what Dan saw. Just like something stopped me dead in my tracks, on what was to be my last night on the stripper pole at the age of 28. Sure, I made the choice to leave, but something ignited that decision.
Stripper, housewife, student, executive – no matter what your story – we all have those moments, standing with our hands in the air at the fork in our ever-winding roads. Our toes planted firmly in the soil, as our eyes pierce down each path, searching for clues on which way to turn.
Sometimes the answer is clear, and we don’t miss a step. Other moments present themselves, and we haven’t a clue where to go. Then there are those lovely situations, in which the decisions couldn’t be more obvious, but we’re in such denial, we can barely breathe with our heads so far in the sand. But time waits for no one, and our journey must continue, so we eventually land on a path, and keep plugging along.
If you follow me on Twitter, you may have heard me joke about the devil and angel on my shoulder. They’re always hooking up, falling apart, then somehow end up in a three-way with the voice of reason in my head. Those pesky shoulder pads of mine are the Sam and Diane of my conscience, while Carla is my voice of reason (it’s entirely possible I grew up watching too much television).
So what is that something? What’s behind the torrid liaisons of our heart and minds telling us to go here, or stop there? Call it your gut feeling, intuition, or inner-voice, and you nailed it. It’s that blind faith in ourselves that carries us across the threshold of decision. More often than not, we’re wrong. We fall so hard, it takes an army of will to pick ourselves up and keep on. But keep on we do, and the lessons, they continue.
One of my favorite movie lines is from Under The Tuscan Sun, and a delicous metaphor for blind faith:
“Between Austria and Italy, there is a section of the Alps called the Semmering. It is an impossibly steep, very high part of the mountains. They built a train track over these Alps to connect Vienna and Venice. They built these tracks even before there was a train in existence that could make the trip. They built it because they knew some day, the train would come.”
Building our personal train tracks is anything but easy. We wear out, get battered and bruised, and some days, just want to quit. But what’s important is that we keep building. Something inside us whispers to our hearts, tells us to believe, to keep working. Because that something knows – our trains will come.
6 thoughts on “More than a feeling”
I kind of want to marry this post. 🙂 Under the Tuscan Sun is one of my favorite movies and I love the train story – it’s like manifesting!
I’m learning a lot about how to tune into the intuitive pangs we feel in my life coaching course. It’s all about listening to your body rather than your mind. We all have internal compasses and if we follow them, we’ll always land on our right paths. It’s really comforting to know that, isn’t it? That we have all the answers if we just listen closely?
It really is amazing!
I build a few train tracks before the train even exists. My character–I believe in intuition and gut feeling. In fact, in one matter in my life, I just have not given up. Even though others would have closed the door, for some reason, my intuition tells me to hold on. Just to wait. Be there. But not to say too much or force it. But for some reason I cannot shut the door. Not just yet and maybe not ever. And others would have given up already I know. On things that doors should be closed, I eventually get there. But for some reason, this particular door seems like it should remain open. However, I have had to do one thing. I’ve opened the door and left it open. The person will be allowed to walk through whenever they feel comfortable. I am not going to force them. And, as well, I continue to do things. I have not stopped living life. That would be a mistake to stop living life.
However, in past experiences, my gut instincts have been right. So I don’t second guess my feelings. Things may not happen when I want them to happen but they eventually do. And they get tweaked along the way too.
I loved this pic of the railroad tracks. I love trains. I wanted to live by train tracks. Most say it is too loud. I don’t think so. I love hearing the train whistle in the distance.
I have not seen Tuscan Sun yet. I have heard it is a good movie.
Our intuitions are usually spot on, aren’t they? It’s the not wanting to believe it, or listen to our gut that I struggle with sometimes.
I love trains too.
You must see this movie! I’m with Mel – it’s one of my FAVES!
Thank you so much for this. Sometimes I wonder what the heck I’m doing and what is it all for? I want more, but not sure what that is. You are right, I’m laying my tracks and am open to my train to come. I can be so impatient and want it all to come right away! My timing will be perfect, even if it doesn’t seem so at the moment 🙂
You’re so welcome! I’m the same way. Learning to be patient with myself is never easy. xo